I was thinking about Life and where mine is right now. I don't know where to begin, i'm so confused. I see people doing things, doing things for something, they have a cuase. I feel like right now i have nothing, i'm not doing anything i have no cause. No passion.

And I see religious people, they have all the hope in the world, they're living for something. But i've convinced myself too much that nothings there that i couldn't just start believing. Even if I wanted to I couldn't. I have too many questions too many disbeliefs.

But the thought of just living to be dead, with nothing, just to reproduce, just to be part of this thing that's going nowhere. I know that if there's nothing after this, why isn't this great. How can I make this better.

Every day I've been sitting at home dreaming. When I need to be doing, but i feel like i'm too young, I'm not old enough for anything. Kids are more then half the united states and yet they can't choose what they want for their country. Don't you think kids have something to say, Well i do. I think if one child went up to someone and told them how they felt it would effect that person. To know that they were ruining something for someone so pure as a child. And beleive me i'm not a fan of children, but I know what it's like to be one and I had questions, I had statements i had opinion.

Yeah, presidents can come read to us..poorly at that. But we can't ask them why we were adopted becuase our mom was too young but couldn't have an abortion. Why we aren't wanted because we were mistakes..accidents.